My Two Valentines

Sunday, February 14, 2016


Last year, Hunter and I spent our last Valentine's Day together, just the two of us.
I was convinced Oaklyn would make her debut right in the middle of our date... or maybe hoping?
But, she didn't. Stubborn little thing.
Hunter and I enjoyed that night together. 
We spent the evening going out to eat, walking around the mall, and watching a movie.
It was laid back, and just what my pregnant body needed.
I remember that day clearly, not because it was anything super significant, but because I remember wondering how I could possibly love another human being when I loved Hunter with all my heart already.
I know it sounds silly, but I was actually worried that I wouldn't be able to share my love.

I still struggle with this on occasion. It can be difficult dividing up the love.
I constantly feel like I have to give either Hunter or Oaklyn more attention because I've been more focused on the other one.
Obviously, Oaklyn steals most of it, most of the time... and I go to bed wondering how it will even be possible for me to split up my love among the other children we will one day have.
But somehow, I always find more love to give.

So here's to you my two sweet Valentine's :)

Hunter, I hope you know I'll always love you first. When all my attention is on our crying, teething baby, my mind is on you. You were the first man I ever really loved, and you will be the last. I'm sorry I easily get stressed and overwhelmed and most of the time take that out on you. You don't deserve that, but thank you for loving me anyways. Thank you for being there. For always being there. For writing me weekly on your mission and staying awake to text me in high school even though I knew you were tired. Thank you for supporting our family and working so hard to let me stay home with our baby. Thank you for comforting me during the trials and celebrating with me during our triumphs. Most importantly, thank you for promising to love me forever. Hunter, I couldn't ask for a better husband. I may not always express this, but I'm constantly in awe of the man you have become. You're my one true love, my rock, my forever, my eternal Valentine. I love you beyond words, and I always will.

Oaklyn Joy, you have given my life meaning. I know you won't be reading this anytime soon... if ever, but I still need to get it out. Thank you for being so patient with me during my first year of motherhood. I'm sorry you have to be the guinea pig, just know you will also always have a very special place in my heart because of it. I'll always treasure all those moments we spent together in the middle of the night just looking at each other and trying to figure each other out. I used to study your profile in those moments. I was always in awe of your beauty. I couldn't believe Heavenly Father could fit so much perfection in such a tiny body. I am so thankful He trusted me to nurture and raise you. I feel like the luckiest mama. The moment I became a mother, I understood my purpose. You have filled me with so much joy, love, heartache, happiness, fatigue, and empowerment. You have caused me to feel a love I didn't know existed. I love you to the moon and back, my tiny Valentine. 

All my love,
Aleigh Joy
(mama)



2 comments

  1. I just love you guys! <3 We're so lucky to be your friends!

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  2. Sounds you like you have very sweet Valentines!

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