Settle down, it'll all be clear

Sunday, September 2, 2012

I let my thoughts run free most of the time, I think its good. The quality of my thoughts though, could be altered a little bit. There are plenty of times in my life that I am being too judgmental or too hard on myself. Now, what good will that do to the level of my happiness? Absolutely nothing. I've realized that the times I feel the happiest are when I am dwelling on all things good.

I have reflected a bunch on this past week and the thoughts I let myself think. I tried my hardest to remember all the happy ones, to remind myself of the blessed life I live.

The other day as I was running, I passed by the cemetery in this town. I saw two women standing beside a grave holding each other closely. I immediately thought of the plan of salvation and all the happiness and strength it gives me. I have such a strong testimony of this beautiful plan our Heavenly Father has for us and I am so thankful that I get to live with him again. I'm not sure what the relation those 2 women had to the person they were visiting, but I'll almost guarantee they were family. Would things be different for them if they knew they would have a chance to be with that person again, that there is a happy and perfect life awaiting us after death? I am almost positive it would. Death is but a passing on to the next life, it is necessary in our Heavenly Father's plan. I thought about Anthony and my heart felt happy. That was a quality thought.

I have been babysitting for a family with an adorable baby boy recently. The first time I went there, he was sound asleep for most of the time I was there. This past time I went, I got to play mommy and spend more time holding, cuddling, and playing with the sweet little one. There were several times I would look at him and I really could see Heaven in his eyes. He is perfect, in every way. As I played with him and saw his sweet smile, my heart melted. I fed him and saw the innocence in his eyes. I laid him down in his crib, put in his pacifier and watched his eyes slowly drift away as I sang lullabies. His stillness touched me. I now understand why we are trying to be like children. Yet again I see quality in that thought.

Lastly, today we had testimony meeting in church. For those of you that are not clear on this topic, we as Mormons fast on the first Sunday of every month for something near and dear to us. As we fast we reflect on the reasons we are not eating and draw nearer to our gracious Heavenly Father. Today I started to feel a little bit hungry but quickly remembered my reasoning for fasting. I took a second to ponder my reasons and was quickly reminded of why it is so important to continue on. I continued to listen to the testimonies being shared. I am so grateful for a wonderful ward with such strong testimonies. Just by sitting in the chapel you can feel so much love. Afterwards Audrey and I were off to primary as our first week of being co-sunbeam teachers. I am very happy to say that it went well and I can already tell these kids are going to teach me something very important. Patience. 

I hope you have a beautiful remainder of your Sunday :)

All my love,
Aleigh Joy

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