A Letter To My Little Valentine

Sunday, February 12, 2017
I don't have to worry about kissing my babe with my lipsense!

My sweet Oaks, this Valentines Day is the first that I really feel like I have a second little Valentine.
I loved you tons last year, but our relationship together has grown so much in the past year.
You're my best little friend, my favorite shopping buddy, my perfect little girl.
One day, you'll probably find this blog of mine and read a little about what your life was like growing up.
I hope you find that I love you to pieces and that I've never felt like I had more purpose on this earth until I became your mother.
When I woke up that Tuesday morning with a sore chest and slight nausea, I absolutely knew you were there.
I still snuck a test into the second bathroom to make sure it was true.
When those two pink lines appeared, I think I felt every emotion in the book.
I covered my eyes and started bawling.
I was excited and scared all at the same time.
It didn't feel real, but I absolutely knew you were there.
As time went on and I felt your little kicks I began to love you in a way I'd never felt before.
When you entered the world I took one look at you and knew I wanted to give you the world.
I felt inadequate to say the least, but all I wanted was to be the mother you deserved.
We had a rather difficult first year of your life filled with little sleep and lots of crying on both ends.
You were figuring out life and I was figuring out my new life as a mother.
With each runny nose, milestone, and meal thrown on the floor... I realized why this love was a different kind of love.
A mother's love is selfless, and it is never ending.
Even when I fall to the floor after sticking you in time out because I feel like I'm failing you, I couldn't love you any more.
You came up to me the other day, put your hand on my shoulder and said "Mama nice, mama fun, mama yov me."
You didn't see it as you walked away, but I brushed my tears away from my eyes because just those 7 words you said in your tiny toddler voice, made me feel like super woman. 

I want you to know I cherish all the moments I get to spend with you, just me and you.
You've become the best friend I didn't know I was missing.
Sure you yell and scream when you don't get your way... Sure you demand a lot of me and test my patience... but when it comes down to it, you're the only one that doesn't judge me for my imperfections. 
You stand by me with pride because you love me despite my flaws, you forgive when I make mistakes, and you trust me when I have no clue what I'm doing.
You reach for my hand as we walk across the street, look to me when a stranger says hello, and giggle when I do something silly.
Oaklyn Joy, this year and all other years, I want you to know that you are my Valentine too.
Because on a day for Lovers, I can say that I love you with the most selfless and unconditional love out there. 

I love you sweet baby.

All my love,

Photos taken by Tiel Photography

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